Where we are

"So, where are you guys at in the whole adoption process now?"

Been hearing this question a lot lately. My fault. I haven't posted about our journey in quite awhile. Honestly, I'm still processing my trip. working through A LOT of emotions. loving my baby from afar. To be honest, it's been HARD. Experiencing parts of the adoption process with one of my besties, I thought I would maybe have an understanding of what I would be going through. Thought I had some good insight. Thought handling things would be a bit easier. However, nothing prepares you for a journey that is all your own. Emotions are raw. leaving a sweet little love half way across the world feels like leaving a part of yourself. living my life of luxury here knowing what life is like there. makes me sick. But, I'm dealing. day by day. Talking with a therapist helps a whole lot. someone who knows how to take and deal with my crazy. My Father placing His finger on parts of me that need to change. Working in me. my marriage. our family. while we wait. wait. wait.

Wait. That is where we are. We have received our I-171h approval form from the USCIS. We have been filed for Court in Ug. We have been assigned to a Judge. We now wait for our Judge to assign us a court date. Our Judge is on leave till December 15th and most likely will not take our case until after the holidays. We're praying for early next year, but knowing His timing is best. While we wait, I stand confident that my baby is feeling love. Love from friends who are there right now. Love from volunteers. Love from the One who loves him more than I ever can.

So, that's where we are. Waiting. Trying not to wish and waste this time away. Asking the Lord what He will have us do in this wait. and Trusting.