some thing's missing. i feel that way all the time. my heart longs. i ache. sometimes it's almost unbearable. like i should be able to just reach out and grab, but it's just beyond my reach. i feel if i stretch just a bit father, work a bit harder, i could get there. but i can't. so i long. soon. soon things will change. i'm not exactly sure how, but things will change. will i find what my heart longs for? will i come home different? i'm sure of it. am i open to His plans for us? something i struggle with. often. i want to be open. i want to be stretched. there is pain in the longing. but there is also beauty. He's making the longing beautiful everyday.